15.11.09

It's been awhile..

lots of things have been happening...

my mind is not at peace...

i m trying so hard to control...

but i dunno if i m doing the right thing

every morning i wake up..i tell myself i shd not contact u anymore..

i fail..

sigh...

yoz monday again

Last weekend was a blast!!

Went to tung ping chau..omg..it's great...wonder how it become that way..

then sunday..car driving session..getting to noe the tricks..

sunday nite.PARTY TIME..gosh shdnt taken the cigar...haha...

Disney Halloween...

spent alot..sigh..but it's worth..







the feeling this time is kind of different..is it cos things have changed so much??

whenever i see the characters..i still feel that it was worth back in those days..no matter how hard it was...
i dunno how to describe..but..it's weird...haha..
i noe one day i will be back..but not so soon somehow...i just have that feeling..

18/10/09

another week has passed again..

this week was filled with food and drinks...

last sat had my CRE..gosh..so tiring..kept on sleeping thru out the tests..hahaha..
then went to N' place for romantic dinner...haha...3 of us again...chatted alot...

monday..not feeling well..but went out with C finally...wondering if the feeling is gone...but..i really enjoy seeing her...cos i feel happy...

tues..500 days of summer..great movie..love the plot..love how it narrate the story of love...cruel and yet it's so true...

wed..tarrot cards..well..wonder if all are true..as H said..just take those u wanna believe..haha...i hate the part abt my relationship..sucks..hahaha as always..

then OT..car driving..gosh...and today i woke up at 1pm..catching all the sleep...er...

luckily i went swimming yesterday afternoon...yeah..=)

what i did

purposely show my presence on ur msn....for just these few days..

checked ur xanga to know if u have a great bday..

texted u to say happy bday...though..i noe i shdn't have and yet another msg to protect myself..

then again asked u y...and y not giving her another chance..


do i still love u?
or just care abt u?

i dunno
i really wanna know too


and yet..i remember what i have promised u throughout...

but does it matter now...

may be i will know tmr...

funny

had lunch with good friends yesterday....great time..
then dinner and drinks with my buddy again..

first time someone sent me to the bus stop..i noe just out of sincerity but the feeling is funny..
gonna watch 50o days of summer with him on tues..yeah..



finally the day is over...ha..
i bet you must have a great bday without me..and it gonna be this way ever after..

er..

mixed feeling..

tmr date is cancelled...sigh..i have been waiting and expecting..nvm

time flies..

last year i was busy preparing..and this year...i m already replaced
hahaha...expected isn't it?

well....i m doing all these stupid to make sure that i give up....hahaha...


happy birthday!
i m sure someone will sure make u happy..

Hello October

2nd Oct...2nd days of my holidays

i studied abit..read abit...
spent money on the mini speaker..cosmetic..food
went out abit..
haha

tmr gonna go sun bathing...bet i dont have money to rent any kind of sports..let see

gonna see her on next friday..
kind of nervous..
wonder what kind of feeling i will have..

last week of Sep..

Alrighty..time zooms..now it's reaching october..

spent alot these days again..but i m happy..get some clothes..bag..shoes..yay

gonna have so many activities in oct...=)

30/9 dinner
2/10 bbq
3/10 surfing
4/10 driving lesson
10/10 CRE
17/10 work for the whole day
31/10 Wild days out

i must be good during weekdays to study hard...and train my 10k run...

hopefully..=)

13th Sep 09

time flies..HKDL has been opened for 4 years..wow..
though i have left for few years..still i m proud of myself..haha..setting the miracle..anyhow

i was in high spirit for the whole week...may be cos i went to tap mun..enjoyed my sun..my sea breeze...or cos i got the present from overseas..and knowing that someone is in hk soon..and in fact she is in town now..

went swimming in the morning..really love being in the water...=) then nap in the afternoon..how wonderful that is man..

study is not really in progress..i dont really understand sigh...

my first challenge gonna be on this thursday! wish me luck..

20090909

just look at today's date..
what a lame..
will those pple who get married today will be happily ever afteR?

生還者. Charlene

好勝的你 嗜好愛收藏 要四出獵奇
愛侶給你 當趣怪珍藏 要更多不厭棄
你的寶庫里 有各種展品怎媲美
沒歇止占據 似怪僻行為可鄙

仍遺憾曾遇上 極度真心愛你
遺憾曾做你 患難知己
而你竟糟蹋我更冷酷地 炫耀著我做戰利
一生給你殺死 狠心不留余地

你太好戲 兩腳放幾船 也慣於處理
世界得你 哪會有安全 禁閉應是無期
你有否對我 說過真心話真希冀
有否想過我 也有感覺會傷悲

仍遺憾曾遇上 極度真心愛你
遺憾曾做你 患難知己
而你竟糟蹋我更冷酷地 炫耀著我做戰利

醉駕司機 若禍及他人
仍然會說一聲對不起
但是看你 傲慢不羈
犯罪視作趣味 愈望愈恨你

遺憾曾遇上 極度真心愛你
遺憾曾做你 患難知己
而你竟糟蹋我更冷酷地 炫耀著我做戰利

遺憾曾遇你 落入魔鬼兩臂
遺憾曾為你 絕望找死
而你竟歡送我去到墓地 還道謝厚著臉皮
當心失蹄逃避 晚景凄涼無味





ha..great song for those who love two timing..

25th Aug 09

Today i saw her...
i haven't seen her for almost 7 years...
i have been trying to avoid getting into any contact with her throughout all these years..
i have been imagining the meet up situation sometime ago..
and guess that's fate

i saw her again today...
she still caught my sight..she still looks the same..at least i can recognize her..ha..
i remember she was like that 10 years back when i first knew her...
i stopped and turned back..and wanted to say hi so much..
then walked away....i did send her a fb msg..and expectedly she replied...
anyhow..i sincerely hope that she is having a good life..

memory just flash back...
afterall...she really loved me for that time being..

another week

another week has zoomed..

spent alot this week..

facial stuff $500
license $1200
5cm clothes $553

sigh..don't wanna look at the credit card bills

anyhow..been really lazy to go out..not sure if cos of the weather..has been sticking at home..browsing all the websites..not even studying..=p
not sure the why i still went to get some clothes..anyway..

i found sth to do on my bday this year..haha..not sure if i can manage to do it...SIGH
i always say and think..and seldom put it into action..besides for those i think that's really impt..
procrastinating...sigh

i have 3mths..for the FRM
1 mth for the driving written..
2 mths for CRE
then gonna pay for CFA level 1..

CRAZY!

weekend

had a short trip at cheung chau..haven't been there since 2005...
the weather was HOT and STUFFY!!! omg..i prefer it rains man..
anyhow....went hiking..haha..wow..never went to this kind of coastal line in hk before...the wave was GREAT!
had seafood for dinner..yup SEAFOOD..it was good..but we had stomachache after that...
we took turns for the toilet..and in the end i had such a good sleep..=)
had lunch..went to ifc...had my latte..then went home..
nice time with my gd friend..talked so much...well..it gonna take so long again for me to meet with her and chat so much...sigh

well i think i shd not be so geek...haha..but i do like this kind of lifestyle....

failed the writing competition but at least i tried right...=)




not sure if it will work..but at least i do like seeing him more often..=p

Good song..

“It’s Alright, It’s Ok”
Performed by Ashley Tisdale

You told me
There’s no need
To talk it out ’cause it’s too late
To proceed and slowly
I took your words and walked away
No looking back
I won’t regret, no
I will find my way
I’m broken, but still I have to say

Chorus:
It’s alright, I’m ok
I’m so much better without you
I won’t be sorry
I’m alright, I’m ok
So don’t you bother what I do
No matter what you say
I won’t return
Our bridge has burned down
I’m stronger now
I’m alright, I’m ok
I’m so much better without you
I won’t be sorry

You played me, betrayed me
Your love was nothing, but a game
Portrayed a role, you took control
I…I couldn’t help, but fall
So deep, but now I see things clear

Chorus

Don’t waste your fake shedded tears on me
Just save them for someone in need
It’s way too late, I’m closing the door

Chorus

I’m better without you
I won’t be sorry
It’s alright, I’m ok
Alright, ok
Without you
No matter what you say
It’s alright, I’m ok
Alright, ok
Without you
I won’t be sorry

great lyrics....=p

Family..

家家有本難唸的經..

責任..

電影中，蜘蛛俠的叔父跟彼得說：「當你能力越大時，責任亦越大。」
不只能力，年齡漸長，好像事事都關己。
無奈的是年齡和能力未必成正比。
只可輕嘆，及見步行步。

finally

it's another monday..
i finally sent out the composition and application..not sure if i can make it but at least i tried..

being single is good in this way... =)

what a day..

Finished the whole series of Mr. Brain..
kimura is still the coolest man i have ever seen..haha..=)
i am really into this kind of investigative tv shows..

just woke up from this super long nap...o man..from 2 to 6..isn't it a bit luxurious..haha..
the weather is nice and chill..so good for sleeping....
hope tonite i do have this kind of good quality of sleep...

Monday!

Alright..another Monday has gone..wow..

it was a big challenge on work today..many things to do all of a sudden..
client complained..
needed to redo some wrong work by others..
new job..
new project assigned..
stock and currency market has gone down abit..
lesson at nite..

anyhow it has GONE..

Sunny Day!

finally the sun is back for the weekend..yohoo..
my mind is finally at peace somehow...well..
exercise does help..and may be i shd try to do sth new to refresh my mind..=)

痛愛

仍然難禁看著你這個壞人　有什麼的吸引
殘酷至此更讓我想靠近
心知要換個別人還是有人

如同前世欠下你的吻　還怎麼敢怒憤
已習慣親朋好友問我怎會為你等
學會講只因這種狠深得我心

*
喜歡你讓我下沉　喜歡你讓我哭
能持續獲得糟蹋亦滿足
喜歡你待我薄情　喜歡你為人冷酷
若是你也發現　你也喜歡虧待我
我就讓你永遠痛愛著我 (我願讓你愛上我更加多)*

和諧甜美永沒有天意弄人　有什麼的吸引
誰待我好我就會不過問
偏偏踫著那壞人全部誘人

全球情侶故事也相近　寧願天昏地暗
要為錯的人傷過恨過　方算是勇敢
長世間不喜歡開心喜歡痛心

some thoughts

i m back to the stage where i always import songs into my ipod.

i m currently in love with juno..haha..

btw..i miss nicholas tse...sigh...

hesitation..

when i got her msg this morning...i was really happy...though just few sentences...it can make me smile for the whole day..=)

so what's next..noone noes...i can't talk like someone else...still can't understand how my friend can actually make it into talking to decide whether they can go work it out...hm...may be cos it's my problem..i have never made it into talking...sigh

anyway...i will still take some efforts...=)

Not again...

Swine flu is getting quite serious...sigh...it reminds me of the days in 2003....

All of us are so vulnerable....the govt seems to be more prepared this time...they better be man...

the cases in Mexico is really serious...the virus is so crazy these days....i just hope that none of the people i noe will get infected...

i wonder if we need to wear masks tmr..

Back to Track..

well..back home for almost a week...things are getting to normal..work as usual..waking up in the middle of the night..=( back to my normal routine...

thank god that i don't really have jetlag...yeah...

i have registered for my exam AGAIN..hopefully i can start my revision soon..the thing is..i don't have the motivation so far..SIGH...after you get out of the sch..it's really hard to pick up again...hm..but well let see...i must force myself no matter what since it costs me more than HK$3000...

my saving plan is getting into shape..i m seriously waiting for the market to go really bad..haha..i noe i m bad..but this is my chance man...i have already missed the bull years..sigh...no point to regret anyway..hope for the future..

i am still thinking if i shd for MSC finance...or MBA..or sth else...

seriously i don't like to plan things...i m really an impulsive person...but as time goes by...i like to stick to routine..hm...ya getting old...

my kids are getting so big..hm..i wish they could stop growing..ahhaha....they know so much even they are still below 3 year old..omg....but they made my life so much happier..haha..=)

Home Sweet Home..

Finally I am back to this vibrant city..Hong Kong..



I am having abit of Jetlag here..hm..hope i can sleep real soon..

stressed but happy

i have been on morning shift these few days..o gosh..so tiring..and so stressful...er...

BUT..my sis is in town these few days..yeah...we talked alot...abt lots of topics..
and her bf is great too..
tonite we met up and had drinks and dinner..chatted so much..then walked back to central pier...so relax...
hopefully we can meet up again..=)


tmr is April fools day..haha..hope everything goes well..=)

heartbreaking..

i have watched the whole season 5...

sigh...it's really heartbreaking to watch abt bette and tina..omg...



please leave this kind of plot in the sitcom rather than into my stupid drama life man...er...



being single is a really good option somehow if you noe that you may end up hurting other people...

累..

經過幾日嘅打仗...情況開始緩和...


不過呢幾日都瞓得唔好...醒幾次...唉...

開始為朋友們買野..做送貨仔..哈

似乎我要提早買相機...hm..分期好似好啲...

時間過得真係快..三月就完...果然20s後係過得好快...就黎30..er..

hm..

愛的暗示25/03/2009

和 女 性 朋 友 一 起 看 《 收 錯 愛 情 風 》 ， 我 們 都 很 喜 歡 這 部 電 影 。
談 戀 愛 是 一 件 很 開 心 的 事 ， 偏 偏 大 家 都 不 坦 坦 白 白 ， 要 暗 示 來 暗 示 去 ， 搞 出 很 多 誤 會 。
約 會 之 後 ， 男 女 交 換 電 話 ， 男 的 不 致 電 ， 到 底 為 甚 麼 ？ 女 的 開 始 猜 想 ， 他 可 能 公 幹 在 外 、 家 中 有 事 、 丟 了 她 的 電 話 號 碼 等 等 。 但 最 簡 單 的 答 案 是 ： 他 沒 有 打 給 你 。
女 人 對 愛 情 有 很 多 期 望 ， 所 以 容 易 不 斷 給 對 方 及 自 己 藉 口 。 有 時 她 根 本 對 那 個 男 的 也 沒 有 特 別 好 感 ， 但 就 像 電 腦 程 式 一 樣 ， 渴 望 對 方 繼 續 聯 絡 ， 甚 至 追 求 自 己 。
夫 妻 間 貴 在 坦 白 ， 但 如 果 沒 有 信 任 ， 坦 白 也 是 徒 然 。 他 向 她 告 誡 ， 承 認 自 己 做 錯 ， 但 她 本 來 已 經 懷 疑 ， 他 說 甚 麼 其 實 只 是 供 她 的 猜 想 作 出 結 論 的 工 具 。
雙 方 首 先 要 肯 定 是 否 有 感 覺 ， 有 了 一 個 特 殊 的 感 覺 才 可 談 進 一 步 。 如 果 對 這 感 覺 不 清 不 楚 ， 便 會 對 對 方 產 生 懷 疑 ─ ─ 他 愛 我 嗎 ？ 我 感 覺 到 的 她 也 感 覺 到 嗎 ？ 這 樣 不 會 有 發 展 。
肯 定 之 後 ， 請 坦 坦 白 白 ： 我 喜 歡 你 。
坦 白 之 後 ， 能 一 起 不 能 一 起 是 後 話 了 ， 那 是 很 多 因 素 造 成 的 。 但 兩 個 人 感 到 愛 已 不 容 易 ， 浪 費 在 暗 示 中 ， 而 非 享 受 戀 愛 的 快 樂 ， 豈 不 是 一 場 糟 蹋 ？
梁 以 花 　 電 影 人




好似同我講緊野咁..哈...
仍然在苦惱中...唉
冇鬼用..

打仗..

呢兩日返工好似打仗咁...多得大笨象唔少...
神經完全係崩緊狀態...好耐未試過忙到咁...
都好..時間過得快啲..=)

攞左appraisal...冇花紅...唉..算啦...唔炒我就得喇...

見個股市反彈得咁好...都係沽左我啲中國基金...唔知有冇蝕...不過cash is king...

雖然老細ban左proposal..但係我開始有啲頭緒..


仲有八日!!

昏.暗

唔知係咪天氣嘅關係..心情亦都受到影響...

真的09年不是好年...
好友大病初癒...唉..希望身邊所有人開開心心，健健康康






終於可以能夠同你講幾句..
至少笑番..=)

Wine Tasting Class Part 2

今日學左更多..

要成就一枝佳釀需要很多原素...

亦初嘗平，靚，正嘅酒...

呢兩日係值嘅..可以學以致用..=)
令我呢個酒鬼兩個禮拜後應該發左顛...哈!可以估到自己會係supermarket度猛shopping..=p

上完之後仲即刻再去買酒加食tiramisu..正!



越黎越期待四月...

點算...

早期抑鬱症 病徵
　　
精神科醫生丁錫全（上圖）指，別以為經常早醒或半夜醒來是小事，這可能是早期抑鬱症的重要病徵之一。「如無論甚麼時候睡覺，總會於某個特定時間醒來，然後便再難以入睡，又或者持續早醒超過一星期，甚至影響日間活動，即有可能是患上抑鬱症的早期先兆。考試前夕的緊張情緒、睡前有過度觀能刺激，以及過度焦慮等，均令腎上腺素 維持高水平，令人不能平靜地入睡。曾受心靈創傷、飲酒、濫用藥物 等，都會降低睡眠質素，易致失眠、發噩夢及易醒。」


Copied from http://hk.news.yahoo.com/article/090319/3/b9f1.html



希望去完個旅行會好啲..
但係有時差..會唔會仲衰??

事發現場...

由分開至今..我一直避免經過某些地方，除了我怕會遇上她..亦因為不想記起...

今日出乎意料地竟然經過了事發現場...

仍然難想像當時的我可以有這種勇氣...

那一幕...



已經過去了...

我的理智竟然蓋過了愛情的盲目...

真的想問自己..還會再相信嗎?

Wine tasting class part 1

第一堂..

葡萄酒是一門學問..
有歷史，有技巧，有深度...


要花點心機..

不過，我對酒有興趣多過finance...=p

Friday again..

Finally it's FRIDAY!!!! another week is gone...great...

nth special for the whole week...becoming like a routine...and i start liking it..haha
i have started my fitness program too...have been doing push ups and sit ups lately...planning to run tmr morning..hopefully i can make it...

today is kind of eventful too...sigh..my proposal got banned from the boss..need to discuss with the coworkers again...and this client was kind of unreasonable too..anyway it's over..
talked to my good friend and sis today..yay..

sis is coming over next week...so excited...=) i m blessed that i have few of the friends whom i can talk abt everything...we can drink and party hoho...but too bad..the drinks in hk is expensive...er...let see how it goes

gonna have wine tasting lessons tmr...i wonder how it will be...but Miss Lam will be with me..so it shd be alright...=p

next 2 weeks gonna be tough...hope it can pass asap...


P.S. Miss Choo..as you said i need to cater singaporean readers..so there you go...hahahhaa =p

The busy have no time for tears..- Byron

今日係太陽報讀到李敏嘅文章...大概關於失戀嘅人嘅對策係令自己好忙..

我完全同意..亦係我前一排做既野..令自己冇任何空閒時間去亂諗野...

不過只係可以維持一段短時間..因為人真係唔可以太忙...哈!
作為一個過渡期...之後就要慢慢back to track...

除左令自己好忙...亦都可以催眠自己...
狂同自己講已經過去喇....之前冇呢個人都係咁過...怕咩..

當然唔係人人都可以...始終感情真係好難衡量...唉..



http://the-sun.on.cc/channels/fea/20090319/

找到了..

是你了!!
你將dslr加dc仔二合一...
好想將你據為己有...=)
不過都要起碼等到五月先....到時我諗你個價會更加吸引...=)

夢想...

仍然覺得夢想好難實現，所以叫做夢想...

我細個嘅夢想其實係做醫生!!!

哈，但係當我中學選科時，我知道冇可能...因為實在太辛苦喇..


而家我只係想生活得舒服...做到我能力上做到嘅事...
我未必搵好多錢..至少我生活到...



不過，雖然夢想難實現，至少可以令人有衝勁向上...

OH MY GOD!!!!

美研究：22歲腦力達巔峰 27歲衰老開始

(明報)3月16日 星期一 05:05

【明報專訊】美國科學家發表最新研究報告指出，掛一漏萬、記性差不限於老年人，其實人生智能最鼎盛的時光在22歲，研究顯示，人類步入27歲便開始衰老。
發表於學術雜誌《衰老神經生物學》（Neurobiology Of Aging）的弗吉尼亞大學研究報告指出，人類的智力在22歲達至高峰，一滿27歲便開始衰退。研究員通過視覺拼圖、記憶句子、故事細節，辨認字母和符號模式等測試，對2000名18歲至60歲、健康而受過良好教育的男女進行歷時7年的研究；所用測試模式，亦常用於診斷智障、智力衰退、老人癡呆症等之上。
推理思考速度空間想像顯著遜色
結果發現，表現最佳的平均年齡是22歲，成績是12次測驗中答對9次；到了27歲，在推理、思考速度和空間形象化想像方面顯著遜色。到了滿37歲，記憶力也顯然下降；42歲時，其他方面的表現也變差。然而或許值得慶幸的是，報告指出人們在詞彙或常識測試的表現，將隨年歲增長至起碼60歲。
領導研究的索爾特豪斯（Timothy Salthouse）教授說，上述研究顯示，在20到30歲之間，健康、有教養的成人便開始認知能力衰退的結果，意味防止及扭轉衰老情况的療程，或應及早着手。

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今日睇完呢段新聞之後，我終於知道我點解成日都唔記得帶野...
原來我真係就黎開始衰老...

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attracted by dark side of the force...

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我知好多人都已經知道呢個事實..
不過我仍然都想講多次..





因為..我開始清楚另一個自己...

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終於約到舊朋友食宵夜...肥死...不過好開心...

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回歸

終於安裝了寬頻，又再可以遊走於網絡世界中。

患了感冒，好像所有事都有安排..就是要我乖乖在家。

開了這個全新的部落，因以前那個已經給我關上，另外有其他的，但我想是時候開一個新的。

就看我的這次可以維持多久...

哈!